when i asked, where is your initiative to ask me out?

your answer was so disappointing.

"you (alvin) always ask me out mah, so i let ask me out lor."

where is your initiative may i ask?

Then u can happily post on facebook asking other people out.

well done joan lin, seriously well done.

This is how important i am to you. This blog will well serve as a mirror for you, to the day i tell u the existence of it. It reflects all that you have done to hurt me, and silently i keep quiet to most of them.

And until now, i must say your ego is so high. You never admit it when you're wrong.
You are so perfect, my ass. You can tell me today when quarreling over the phone that you have done nothing wrong before.

i almost fainted at the biggest lie ive heard over the centuries. Even when i tell u, u hurt me accidentally, u still think its not your fault.

Look, wake up your idea.


and to the one i severely neglected, im so sorry.

I know you care for me Jocelyn. But im so so lost now. I dont need help finding my way back home, for im just a lost sheep. Let me find my paths myself. This is by far the biggest fall i have fell and i will climb up on my own. Nevertheless, all your messages sent to my phone make me happy. Cause i know you never fail to be there. Needless whether i tell u or not. Thanks for noticing the statuses on facebook, cause Joan never does. You rock, babe :)

And before i end this,
Joan lin, seriously, you doubt my love for u, Doubt my trust for you. I dont know what else u doubt.
You even have my masters card number on your itunes account. Its not a big deal but, im even giving u a portion in controlling my financial assets. Sometimes, i just think your brain thoughts are so shallow. You never go deeper, to look at everything with a different perspective. Always in your own direction, your own selfishness.

And always in your comfort zone. Thats why u say you LOVE me ENOUGH which i obviously think its a big fat lie. Loving me from your comfort zone is not enough.