surprise!

been sometime

or rather. hahahah too long of a 'time' since i last updated!

i tell u, life sucks now.

hey what does it feel, to have a girlfriend for 10 months, and ever since u entered university, the relationship became like a rollercoaster?

im telling you, this rollercoaster is worst than the one in genting i sat on, most probably 10 years ago.

LOOK AT ME. UGLY AND FAT.

and you

PRETTY AND SLIM

i dont even know why the f u like me.

okay, so u tell me you love me. so thank you.

now you tell me that your FEELINGS tell you that ive been flirting behind your back.

Do you want to install a floating cctv so u can trail my presence day in and out on what im doing etc? Even when im showering?

everything feeling feeling feeling.

then your feeling feeling feelings can tell you how disappointed i am by your words?

YOU GOT REPORT TO ME NOT?

you claim i never report to you. How bout yourself! ask yourself!

you don't lecture someone else kid's until you've lectured your own child!

Now the best part of the story is, you think i'm taking you for granted.

sorry, i think its the other way round.

Lets not debate about who got hurt more la huh. i think both parties got hurt equally as much.

the recent incident, you refused to meet me. if you think its my fault, seriously.

face a wall and reflect. WT F can? You only have weekends with me. AND U CHOOSE TO SAY SUNTEC IS TOO FAR TO MEET UP. Can u see your own commitment level?

if i ask u come JOHORBAHRU find me then okay lah, its too far.

wtf suntec is!? 20 minutes train ride from serangoon to esplanade via circle line?

ASK YOURSELF LAH. fair for me not?

I told myself, nvm, i shall be NICE, and humble myself when i did nothing wrong. ALL i wanted was for you to meet me. thats all. I bought chocolates, stayed over serangoon north avenue 1, at the coffe shop study, dropped the gift at your place at 3am, hardly slept below your block also.

i had a f-cking tailbone injury. and there i am below your block waiting for you to appear, hoping to send you to school.

you DIDNT EVEN GIVE ME A SMILE. F.

do i deserve to be treated like this?

AND EVEN IF IM FCKING handsome to attract women just by looking at them,

then the more you should spend more time with me. Don't you want to hear my story on whats going on throughout the whole week?

Lets put it in a crude way.

Even if i have intentions to run away, stay with me. Spend time with me. Let me know you're someone i can depend on in life.

I can earn 4k and u can earn 2k per month next time after graduation. I dont care.

Im a sentimental person who treasures relations more than anything else.

Money IS NOT EVERYTHING to me. U can be dumb and stupid. All i need is you, to be there for me. And maybe thats why some lawyers can fall in love with garanguni man sometimes.

BUT NOW, IM NOT RUNNING AWAY. you're showing me otherwise.

if its your heart that's telling you to that im flrting behind your back, it shows how much u trust me.

SO I STRONGLY URGE YOU TO fcking dig out the heart. and give it to me.

I will send it to a hospital for examination and tell them to erase everything and only inprint my name into your heart. SO U WILL stop depending on your feelings.

seriouslyyyyyyyyyy wtfffff manxzxz.

i nv flirt, u say i flirt.

i report to u, u say i never.

i always go find you, u say i never

i always want meet you, you say u dont feeling wanted. (ps, this is the worst LOL statement u ever made)

seriously, THINK. face a wall and reflect if need me.

sometimes, dont keep talking to cheryl and joanne.

i dont know how nice they are, or how good they are in giving advices. lets face it, none of them are 20 and above. you're more matured, i think. and thats a very big I THINK!

and pssss: i miss sleeping beside you. When you're in my arms. Dont you wish too? Dont you?

Why keep rejecting me when i want to go your place? Why keep rejecting me when i want to to go dates with you?

are you seeing someone behind my back? :)