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Catch-mywave, if you can.
Dictionary's Definition: Wave; A swell, surge, or rush, as of feeling or of a certain condition.
The blog's definition: catch-mywave; See if you can catch up with the inconsistent swells, surges, amplitudes that are happening in my vast-changing life. I'm finally 21, and legally able to do everything I've been doing since 15. Time flies so fast that i'm already turning 21 this year. DID YOU JUST HIGHLIGHT THIS SECTION? DONT THINK I DONT KNOW! -Alvin |
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hmm. i really dont know what will happen when u find about this blog. its full of the past. angsty notes, comments all about you. This is where i vent my anger in the past and im going to do the same tonight. i dont even know who still reads this blog. Anyway, i do feel better after i write in this blog. But my current mood is not angry, neither am i pissed off. Just disappointed (again). Well, part of life i guess. When we were on the phone call yesterday, you said we were drawing further away from each other (instead of the usual drawing nearer). And i so much wanted to say this, okay. game over Joan. game over. I wanted to break up with you but something's holding me back (again) everytime we quarrel, it is just so natural now. It was akward in the past to quarrel. But now you say that everynight must quarrel at least one time over the phone then can call it a day. You think i want to pick up a verbal fight with u ? c'mon. I have a injured thigh and you didnt even bother to offer to take care of me. And my friend told me he had a hairline crack in his tailbone. I think, i have a hairline crack. Cause it doesnt seem like it broke, or fracture neither is there internal bleeding. So high chances its a hairline crack. Nevermind bout all this, you wont bother as well. The only time u really showed you care is when i told u i fell and rolled 2 times on the main road with uncoming traffic being held up by red traffic lights. Thats when u called to show your concern. Other times, i felt like a piece of thrash which is worthless in your heart. Perhaps there are other times you showed your care and concern. But i cant recall all now. I hope there is a refresh/restart button in my life. Like a pokemon game. last time i used to save my game before a gym fight (boss). then i will go chiong the boss. then lose liao, off gameboy. restart i will get back to the point before i fight the gym fight. if win, then i will save :) Everytime i do something wrong, i realise your love is not so BIG enough to forgive me. So if catholics are of equal status to Christians, and i say God gave me enough Love, for me to Love you, can i also say that mother mary OUGHT to have given you enough LOVE, for you to LOVE me back? You cant seem to forgive me. I want and hope you can forgive me almost like immediately. Its not as though i cheat on you. And speaking of which. If i do marry you, and if i do cheat on you which i shouldnt. And you happen to find out, i think you will stab me with a knife. You get angry over the smallest things. I mean, there is nothing really really wrong with it, just that it gets abit annoying sometimes. yes i agree, i get angry over small things as well and yes thats my bad habit as well. But instead of telling me off and asking me whats wrong when i get angry, you get angry because im angry. You see this LOL part? I like you to be concerned about me. I like you to question me. Because i like to answer you. because i like to tell you stuffs. But ironically, you never like to question me. I thought normally girls would. But you dont :S (not as much i guess) its like the bo-hiew-about-your-boyfriend kinda attitude. When i get angry, ask me WHY. just like when u do, i ask u WHY. oh oh oh. before i end. i just want to tell you this is really stupid. me: Dear whats wrong? you: Nothing wrong larh, where got something wrong. me: Sure ah, dont say i never ask u whats wrong arh. you: yah la yah la. you: refuses to hold my hand, then dropping hints (as good as not dropping) and giving me attitude. (for half an hour of more) me: why u so like that. you: like what. Not happy with my attitude? Sorry horh, this is me. Like it or not, your choice. me: "*WTF!? ask u what wrong just now, tell me nothing wrong. Then now ka-ba-boom!?*" So wheres the transparency in the relationship? sigh. and buy u ring, dont want wear. buy u pendant, dont want wear. How to buy u carat ring next time? i should just buy you 100 bars of chocolate than to buy the pendant. At least u gain WEIGHT with chocolates. Key word : GAIN. Now that i have bought the pendant, what have i gained? =\ gained a statement from you such as, me: why u never wear pendant and ring. you: *oh, forgot lorh.* seriously, how convenient lor =\ okay, i know you're pissed off with me. or angry. or dont give a damn about me anymore. i know im blunt with my words. i know i am . but give me sometime please. i got a lot of things on hand. Joan just left me, and now shes back. I dont know how to tell you. I dont know how to tell you we've patched up. I dont know how to answer to you. I dont know if you will scold me. I don't want you to say im stupid for patching up with her. I love her you know, and thats why we got back together. my parents are calling me close to everyday asking why im not home, when i told them i have exchange students to hand keys over too. And every call they must ask me go book my driving. Im not enjoying my holidays. I really am not. I thought the box of stars i gave you would have made you happy. I thought. I thought it will bring out the message across to you that, "give me sometime, i really want a better friendship with you". Let me settle down this period of time first please. I promise not to leave you aside Jocelyn. You are my best friend and will always be. Please stay by me. |
